Yesterday was awesome. and today is our 54th month for being together.

irritating gf and  endurance bf’s story is still going on. hope we  can fulfill our plans for future will come true too.

one step @ a time:)

i love ya, love.

every time i view his facebook acc.. i log out with frustration  that ran all over my body.

There was nothing when  he deactivated his acc. once activated, that’s it. All the truth are out and we quarreled again.esp when third party get involved .

may be i should keep a fling for myself.so that i’ve got lesser stuff to do with him

and i dun need to care whether he goes out with a bitch or  a babe.

no wonder all my babes got fling. now i know how to maintain a long relationship.  just Get one.

but.. where and how should i find him. hmmm.?

feeling fed up right  now although thing had happened  months ago.

what past is past and i thought i can let go.

Geezzz… dude was having fun without me that nite ,man.

calling me to come down to town in last nite which he knew  i couldnt … telling me he was outing with his guy fren.. and ended up with last min unexpected female guest.

and i saw those pic of that nite when i browse his facebook just now and they’re in her album.

damn..  told me.. he damn missed me on that nite which was on new yr eve.. i m wondering now whether he really meant it.

everything is all lies, man..

i m hurt.

I went to City Hall last weekend. It has been donkey time  i went  there for last time.couple of months ago i think. Had meal with my dude and I had eye contact with this Burmese guy while having ma meal.Just a blink of eyes and i got this unknown feeling. i  didnt know how 2 describe bt.. i was kinda sad.

Look at those eyes. lack of self confidence which leads to  uncertain future as the result.

There are 2 kind of burmese ppl go to cityhall. th one who lift his head up and the one who head down. and the one who head up is of cos.. those newly citizen n PR lah!.. the other one are like private student, Spass and work permit holder.

heard from ma burmese poly friends that most of them who grad this year mite not get PR offer letter. They have to hold Spass for 2 yrs then apply PR later on. what a waste sia. spend so much $ to study in poly and end up working as S.Pass.

unless, those who are really smart ass in the  study like C.O.M holder or GPA 4.0 pointers should be awarded with PR offer letter.com’n man.. make these smart student ‘s lives easier.. for god sake?

Now is like.. all the foreign students gonna get S.Pass to work in Singapore upon their graduation. who would feel happy, tell me man?

i shall say those senior  students are really lucky enough that they graduated earlier than their junior. manage to get PR  b4 this system has implemented.

now is like nothing to boast about being a diploma student cos nothing is certain. Last time was like, “ya from singapore.. studying in blah blah poly.. future PR holder. gonna make $1.8K and above. must write blog about how sophisticated ya daily life is and let other envy about it.ya cant live without air-con and clubbing after 3 yrs studying in sg whereas u come from a country which cant even provide 24hrs electricity and let alone air-con n clubbing.. “. enjoy man.. i mean in sg.. forgetting where ya from.

soon.., there gonna be some gap between  senior n junior batch. senior are citizen n PR and junior will be S.pass holder.

senior will still enjoy the life in sg and junior will gonna struggle like hell…. cos nt much company would like to hire foreigner with S.Pass holder.

senior will job-hopping one after another whereas junior will be job hunting to get one.

hmmm… i can start seeing big gap oreadi..

i was checking ma bank statement just now through ibanking and i never notice that i’ve been earning such amount of $ and spending more or else of that amount.  I m like the more i earn, the more i spend. thrifty?? nah.. hardly.

then  i recalled when is the last time i earned $ for the 1st time when i made $ n i didnt have chance to spend a single cent at all.

It was almost 2 decades ago. i worked as a dish washer at cold drink shop in yangon.

i washed all the cups n glasses from 6pm- 9 or10pm? (cant rem the time exactly) .It was in summer. the weather was freaking hot and ppl  liked to have cold drink in the evening.the stall was kinda busy till no one free to do washing. so i got that job.

i  was like grade-1 or 2? i was kinda shorty and i couldnt reach to counter sink n as the result, i stood on the stool and washed all the dishes n glasses throughout the evening.

i was happy thou i been standing all the way on the stool.whoever been to the cold drink shop 20 yrs ago, they could see a lil gal standing on the stool and washing all the stuff.

surprisingly, i never break those glasses b4and i could clean very sparkling too.

my salary?5 kyat/day and free drink from the shop.

i was happy like heaven whenever i received that 5 kyat..n i saved that $ cos i was young and i didnt know what to buy n spend on what?

now is like.. wow..when comes to middle of the month,my account started to show minus.

when comes to end of the month, i started to ask $ back from ma folk. hehe.

wouldnt it be great if i become tt lil gal who doesnt noe what to spend n just keep saving??

can lah, if i become 2 decades younger.